Category: Musing

MPs have just voted against legalising assisted dying. This is the second attempt, and it failed. Somehow, once again, this stupid country has decided that the answer to people facing the final decision of their lives is to tell them to get fucked because they don’t get a choice. We are a pathetic nation, incapable…

Authenticity feels like a strategy nowadays. It’s something we’re all sort of expected to be, because being real has become commodified. Like everything else in this post-truth late-stage capitalist hellscape, it is a curated façade. We all have to be honest, or at least appear honest, and now honesty doesn’t mean anything at all. It…

I rarely delete posts from this blog, even the ones written late at night that I might regret in the morning. But I’ve just deleted my latest one. I’m not sure if I should have, perhaps I should have let it just sit here and speak its truth but now it’s gone. I’ll get back…

Before I write one of these posts, I try to think about what I actually want to say. There’s nothing wrong with rambling on about a random topic, and there’s sometimes a need for a discussion around a particular theme, but I try to find some sort of purpose to the writing. Maybe that’s why…

It’s now been four years since John died. I do still think about him, not just when I go near West Hampstead station either. He represented something between me and my dad, and it was quite special as I doubt a lot of fathers and sons have a mutual homeless friend. His favourite band was…

Does anyone actually find introductions easy to write? Whether a blog post or an essay, I never know how to start. I sort of have an idea of what I want to write about but I can’t always get going immediately. For the posts, I tend to write random sentences and paragraphs as I’m thinking…

I have no idea how I got to be so jaded. I wasn’t always this way. I had a lot of hope as a kid, loads of exciting plans for the future. I used to make home movies and draw stuff. Now I don’t even have the energy to play a video game or the…

December can be a bit of a nightmare for me. It’s festive as fuck, but I have a trifecta of celebrations to get through and they put a lot of pressure on me. It starts with my birthday, then Christmas, then New Year’s. Each one comes with its own set of expectations as well as…

Most of the entries on my blog are these random introspective pieces, which I affectionately categorise as “musings.” They’re the byproduct of late-night contemplative keyboard smashing that results in raw, unfiltered thoughts. I refrain from editing them, save for spelling and grammar, in an effort to preserve their authenticity. The time spent on these musings…